Jamiekins's WunderBlog

Last Updated: 3:34 PM GMT on November 06, 2009 — Last Comment: 4:35 PM GMT on November 06, 2009

	Jamiekin is feeling better Thanks to his WU Friends

Posted by: Jamiekins, 2:11 AM GMT on October 25, 2009

Thank You all that have given me the strength and wisdom from your post or your personal WU mails. It took a lot out of me to post this but I am glad I did as someone just emailed me This is who I am and I am proud of myself. Just need to reach out to my WU friends here and there for a shoulder to lean on. Thanks

Good Evening everyone.

I have been going through a lot of depression lately and that's why I have not been on here for a bit. I wanted to share with you and others that depression can ruin ones life. You see I came from a abusive childhood ( mental, physical and emotional).

I am now 43 yrs old doing on 44 next month. I have been diagnosed with depression bipolar and I have been fighting it for the past 20 yrs.

I wanted to share a few things. When a person like myself has been raise in the conditions as a child it take a toll on the heart and mind,and securities in ones life. I have been through a lot of heck this past yr with 2 break ins 2 major surgery and fighting depression.

When someone gets hit as hard as I have this past yr there is really nothing we can do to stop the depressions and it not only affect myself but everyone around me. I make life living a bear to deal with. Some people that have never gone through the life I have think that you can just get over it. Its not that easy. I take 5 pills every morning and every night to just keep things in check. But the depressions can still affect your everyday life and you feel helpless and worthless as in my life. I would like to say I am sorry for any hurt feelings I have caused anyone.

I know some people have dealt with someone in their life that deals with depression and have gave a shoulder to cry on thank all of you that can do that. But then there is the family life at home. I know living with me lately has not been the best of time matter of speaking they have been the worst of times. I have gotten moody and people have not wanted to be near me and then there is the insecurity of ones life like when people are quite around you, you ask yourself "What did I do wrong?" and then you need to find out if you did do something wrong. trust me from deep inside of my heart I know I didn't do anything but the mind does that to you. It brings up the past history and you are afraid that you are going to lose the ones that you love if you don't try to make things right or in my case that and afraid ( only as a child not now that you will be beaten till you can't even see.

My depression kicks in my insecurities very bad and I want to say. If you live date married or whatever to a person like myself. When they are in their moods please give them the understanding and know deep in your heart that its not them its their inner child crying for help most of the time. That what the case is with me. I never knew what the word love meant till I met my love of my life and the shoulder I NEED TO LEAN ON HERE AND THERE AND YES MORE THAN NORMAL LATELY. I know the weather also plays on depression namely up north during the winter.

So I am asking if you know anyone that is like I AM please don't look down on then give then the helping hand up and a pat on the back to get the mess off or if they say they need a hug go to them and give them the biggest BEAR HUG THAT YOU CAN AND LET THEM CRY ON THAT SHOULDER TILL THEY CAN CRY ANYMORE. Trust me that is the best thing for me. I am still fighting this and will be for a bit longer just remember depression and bipolar can not be pass on by contact,but its still a illness and don't pull away from that person be there and be their rock for them till they can get back on their own feet. Most of the time it could be a day or a few days, i just thank GOD I have the rock I have and the warm arms to hold me when I NEED them. I am sorry for all the hell I have put them through but thank GOD every day that they are there.

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Updated: 2:55 PM GMT on November 04, 2009

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	Amy Rules!

Posted by: Jamiekins, 3:11 AM GMT on October 06, 2009

I guess I was a BAD BAD BAD BOY for some reason. Wish I knew what I did wrong.Well I now know I posted something form a Banned person I didn't know you are not to do that so I am BAD BAD BAD. But it was a fun Blog. WIll have to do it again HE HE HE

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Updated: 6:55 PM GMT on October 08, 2009

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	Labor Day Weekend on the Gulf

Posted by: Jamiekins, 3:12 AM GMT on September 06, 2009

Well we had a blast on the gulf Saturday. We both had the day off Rented a 20 foot Center Counsel Sailfish boat. Very smooth ride out there and great fishing all day long. Coming back we encountered a wicked storm and the waters were very choppy but still was worth the time money and effort of enjoying a wonderful peaceful eventful day on the gulf. Here are a lot of great shot of the fish we caught and some great sunset photos. Would not of did the day any different...

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Updated: 3:57 AM GMT on September 06, 2009

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	Favorite Vacation Spots you Like in the US.

Posted by: Jamiekins, 4:21 PM GMT on August 12, 2009

Back in 2004 I was able to get away from the rat race for a week and went to Rapid City South Dakota. Since then I have been trying to get away every vacation to someplace new and historic and take as many pics as I can. If you have some vid of your vacations that you care to share please post them lets try to remember some of our fun and Favorite place since we have no Idea how much longer we will be able to enjoy the freedom we have here in the GOOD OLD US. As I s...

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